For those of you that know and have battled with depression, anxiety and panic attacks know that returning to society is hard and can be intimidating. This is the battle I am facing right now in life. I feel like there are folks pointing at me and saying things that make me feel like they think I am to touchy, too emotional. Maybe I am but this is part of the battle that I feel like I am facing. Today is the 2nd Sunday I went to church. I am missed the friendships but not the feeling that folks are looking at me and judging me without knowing my whole story. Please for those folks that know me and want to know, just ask. I would rather you ask than just assume things.  These are things that I thought I over came but still they seem to sneek up on me, and now is that time. Please be patient with me and remember that the folks that are the first encouragement are the first that will need it most when hard times like this strike them down. This is where I am at. Just some thoughts I needed to get out there.

I have recently become a Wellness Advocate for DoTERRA oils. I am excited about this. With having to cook and such gluten free for my daughter I have learned that the cleaner/organic we eat the better for us. Even medications have been hard. She is still taking some things in the children's liquid form and when she is sick, we are very limited on what she can take as a lot of the liquid meds contain gluten. We have found only one thing she can take but along with that I am also giving her medication for things she has no symptoms of, so now I am over medicating her. And what mother wants that. So here I am, going back to the basics of meds.

It states in the Bible that God created everything for our benefit. Plants, fruits, veggies and meat. So along with the plants comes essential oils. These oils are cool. Not only will they help you physically but they can help you with mental issues like anxiety and get you back to a calmer good mood, but you can also cook with it. I mean really, lemon chicken . .  oregano for your pasta sauce . . . mint for your hot coco . . the list goes on. You can even use them if you make your own soaps, lotions and chap stick. So, after having said all that, how can you not go back to the basics, go back and keep things simple?!?

I will be putting in an order only once a month. My first order is Monday, November 13, for those that live local to me. For anyone else feel free to order any time on my website, which I will leave below. DoTERRA's Holiday Guide is out and you can order from it. But if there is anything you want for Christmas order NOW! As once its gone its gone and you maybe out of luck. I would hate for that to happen. So look around and shop.

www.mydoterra.com/nancydoyens

Just wondering . . . if you know that someone has alot on their plate with stuff. Lots of doctors appointment and various health issues. Is it hard to offer help to those in that type of situation? Why should that person have to ask? Does it ever occur to them that the person in need of help is to afraid to ask for it? Afraid of the answer NO, no I will not help you out. That the person in need of help has gotten shut down so many times in the past that its hard to put themselves out there to ask for help. So like I stated before in the past, think about what the person is going through or might be going through before you point the finger and make them feel guilty for not asking for help. Its not fair!!!

I just had this happen to me today. I will confess that I have missed alot of work the past 2 ish years due to many doctors appointments and various health issues. A co-worker started to point her finger at me not knowing all the pieces to my puzzle. Not knowing all the baggage I carry. So when she started to point and shake her finger at me I said wait a minute, you know nothing! I shared somethings to her, not all but just a couple of things and then she tried to make me feel guilty for not asking for help. I have a hard time asking for help cause not only cause I have been shut down so many times but I have also been made to feel like my problems are not important that they are petty and that their issues are more worth me spending my time with their issues. REALLY? So I do not ask for help so again, if you know someone hurting, and over whelmed with things in their lives maybe they are waiting for you to offer so they know that you will not be that kind of person to point fingers and put guilt on their already over loaded shoulders.

Good morning my friends. Last week was my kids spring break from school and it was a learning time for me. It was nice. I feel I taught the devil to back off and that he can not use certain buttons with me any more to get me to not reflect the love of God any more. Trust me it was a rather big button and he had been using it for some time now. This is why I was getting the panic attacks that I did last week. It was the fight over my free will, good vs evil. I know that he was trying to sway me from get together with my dear friends from my past. I have reclaimed my life!!

I did get together with my friend and introduced them to my kids. It was a nice time! I got compliments and confirmations that I was a great Mom and that I have a good head on my shoulders. Things I have not heard in sometime. Don't get me wrong my husband is a great source of positive for me but sometimes you just need to hear it from some one else. For me that positive didn't come from some of the most usual obvious places or people. I know I shouldn't care what people say it only matters what God thinks but my earthly self needs that 'pat on the back'.

So to that person I met up with over the weekend, thank you so much!! I don't think you totally understand how much it meant to me. I am so glad I didn't give in and call it off. Thank you!!

My dear friends I am in need of prayer. Recently I have been contacting friends from my past that where a big part of my life for some time. I feel a war going on with this. Satin is trying to make me feel that this is bad and that I shouldn't go any further. Due to this war I have been having panic attacks. Last night and this afternoon they had gotten so bad that I had to take my meds just to regain my self so I can function. Today has started out wonderful in that God has given me signs that he has never left me and that he is still here holding my hand like he always has, even when I didn't know it. Then I had a conversation with someone from my past and I felt like I was spinning, weak with a rapid heart beat. Why? Please pray that God will grant me power to over come this. I am not going to listen to this voice in my head and not continue with contacting these folks from my past, so if you are reading this and you know its you . . . have no fear. I have come along way and I am grateful to be feeling the fire of God again and I do not want to loose it.

Hello guys, I am in need of prayer. I am going to be going to my doctor to talk about my headaches and come up with a new game plan. Right now our options are daily meds to help prevent them or to see a neurologist. We can not afford another specialist bill so it seems that the med is the right route. I am very nervous about adding more meds. It seems that I am getting 2 to 3 headaches a week for the past month or so. I am just about as sick and tired of feeling this way as I am sick and tired of cold snowy weather.

I must confess in the last 2ish yrs I've pushed people away, not letting people in to know my problems. I've had people come up to me asking me how I am doing, so thinking they are being sincere I tell them only to get the feeling from them that my problems are petty, not worth while. They are my problems and therefore they are important to me, even if they are not important to you. So before you spew out the phrase, 'how are you?' Regardless of how that person response be prepared to be a real friend and support them! If that person is important to you then their problems should be important to you too so show your love and support them. Hold their hand or lend them your shoulder to cry on . . . plain and simple be a friend and support them!!

People may wonder why I don't have very many friends and this is why. I know there are folks out there that has gone through more than my family and I have but for me and my lil world this is big, and important to us. In sharing some of our trials I've gotten the feeling that those 'friends' who ask me how I'm doing don't really care cause I have been made felt like my problems are petty and I am making them into something huge when they are not that big of a deal. 'Friends' that I thought would be supportive and help me made me feel like I was not even 2 feet tall and now worth their time and energy. REALLY? So due to that I have, in my mind unfriended you, and some of them even on facebook.

Now that I feel that I am ready to face the world again I still feel this way. So if you know me please be patient with me and if we are friends, than act like it! Stop making me feel this way I so don't need that!!