My dear friends I am in need of prayer. Recently I have been contacting friends from my past that where a big part of my life for some time. I feel a war going on with this. Satin is trying to make me feel that this is bad and that I shouldn't go any further. Due to this war I have been having panic attacks. Last night and this afternoon they had gotten so bad that I had to take my meds just to regain my self so I can function. Today has started out wonderful in that God has given me signs that he has never left me and that he is still here holding my hand like he always has, even when I didn't know it. Then I had a conversation with someone from my past and I felt like I was spinning, weak with a rapid heart beat. Why? Please pray that God will grant me power to over come this. I am not going to listen to this voice in my head and not continue with contacting these folks from my past, so if you are reading this and you know its you . . . have no fear. I have come along way and I am grateful to be feeling the fire of God again and I do not want to loose it.