I must be getting better, mentally anyway. I realized the other day that I am burning candles again and that is something I haven't done in, oh golly well maybe 3 to 4 yrs or so. I feel that I am smiling more and laughing and acting silly more with the kids. Even my councilor thinks so too. She suggested to me that we go from meeting every 2 weeks to once a month. I feel that I am really opening up with her more about things. Todays confessions was that I have a hard time letting people in and letting people see me and all my pros and cons. In the past I would open up to folks and they say things that makes me feel that my issues are petty and not really all that big. So the next time someone opens up to you about things of their life that is important to them, keep that in mind. Its important to them and don't make them feel that their problems are not worth sharing cause then you just may loose a friend. I confess that is what has happened to me I'm sure looking back lots of times. Same thing goes for the way someone parents their children and how they run their house.

Now that I have gotten this far I do not want to back slide . . . so when I open up to you about something that I find troubling or how I run my house or how I parent my kiddos please take it and be supportive and do not make me feel like I am being petty with stuff. This is my life and if you don't like it than smile and walk away before you say something bad.