The last 2 to 3 days have been full of ups and downs. Yesterday was the best day I've had in a what seems to be like a very long day. I got my hair done and I called Jim as I was leaving and was laughing. He told me it was nice to hear me laughing again. I had no idea that I lost my laugh, that I was so blue and lost in trying to breath that I lost my laugh. It was nice to see him smile again. I know all this blueness I've had has really taken a toll on him. I did notice today that not only did I regain my laugh but I've noticed that I slowly getting my spark/fire/passion for God back again.

I know that I still have a very long way to go and that I will still have days of blue but I know that with all that has happened the past 2 days or so there is hope for me yet. I even noticed that the kids are smiling and happy again.

Thank you for your prayers. Thank you and God bless.

Oh lastly, we are going to the Ronald McDonald House tomorrow to deliver our goodies to the kids there at Edwards Hospital.